New blog....if anyone actually cares

leaving this blog behind for a while for another....i may return when the desire to ramble returns

the crisis that is life

since i seem to be using this blog as a journal of sorts, let's imagine that right about this time in my life i am having a crisis. it may not be a mid-life crisis, but it is still a crisis of sorts. let us imagine it as a quarter life crisis, a crisis i should have had when i graduated high-school, instead of waiting 8 years to figure out life. well the brain-storming begins, so to say. what is it that life has in store for me, from my point of view right now that is not very much. it seems that by 25 someone should be able to look into a glass globe, or perhaps read some tea leaves and have some idea of how this life will turn out. instead of just sitting at home pondering upon the computer, or as some would say ranting, about how their life sucks so much. pity parties are not received well, unless it is a party of one, then the are a huge hit (at least to me). so what is the point to this so well thought out journal entry, of sorts. not much. why is it that once a decent thought or some idea of what the future may hold, a disaster of sorts, a disaster of ideas, of what could or could not be, interrupts the first. fatalism. as of now that is the belief i am holding to, although i hope to somehow change that, therefore disproving my theory. to be able to change the fates, to create a destiny on your own, would be great. but then again, who wants to mess with what was meant to be, even if what was meant, is not much. this crisis should pass, as all crises do, soon there will be a new one. as life goes, quarter life crisis does not amount to much. when the half way mark comes a knocking, hopefully i will be there to hear the knock, then we will see how that crisis plays out. i hope it plays to the tune of a fancy new car, a huge house somewhere tropical, and perhaps a new husband (if one has already been divorced). those are the things i hope to be believing in for my next crisis, then this crisis will seem much smaller and at least right now i am still idealistic in what it is i'm searching for. i soon hope that this idealism will turn into materialism, but getting to that point will mean following a path that perhaps this crisis will lead to.

so pity party done.

awakenings of the early riser

For pure fun and no pleasure here goes nothing.... well i might as well ramble on a little more while this uploads....just remember folks. for kids eyes only....this one is a scorcher....lol....ok then that is about all i have to write right now about absolutely nothing....hopefully it is thoroughly enjoyed by everyone as it should be.....OVER AND OUT

BEST Euro Dance Ever

Ahhhhh Children at Play.How FUN!

ENJOY LADIES THAT ONE"S FOR YOU

So for all you little cats and kittens joanzing for a fix....i will whip one right up here for you....for free ....no charge....and btw this one is ambien filled dreams so don't worry about the outcome, it may get a bit messy or just plain uncomprehensible.

A Song:

I aint never gonna get to sweet minnessotta, never gonna make it to sweet ol' indiana, all i can say is that ives got to stay with me....in this beat up house off route 67, what my life could be....instead im cleaning dishes, and mopping up the floors....while the rest of the family just sits and does none. What a waste of my life, and what a waste of time....i say we go out back with an AK49.

You see where this story flows....no end in sight, who knows....perhaps another man will come along and help us out....for now we sit and drink....i wink because i drink and therefore my winks are meant for more drinks so please fill my glass right.

lifestyles of the rich and not so famous----as seen on tv

So last night decided for once in my life not to hit the town, but instead watch some good ol'primetime tv. God I forgot how much I missed doing that. TV is one of the best inventions, especially when the shows are amazing. Two shows that I love right now are---one for the high-schooler still in me, Gossip Girl...and then for the adult that has yet to arrive in me there is Dirty Sexy Money. THis show is such a soap opera, I love it. I also enjoy the fact that the family who the show is based around is falling to shambles, including a daughter who tried to OD on pills and a son whose cocaine/partying tendencies seem to be out of control/amazing. I wish I lived the lives of these NY elite. My god would that not be amazing. I mean the highschool kids in this Gossip Girl seem to be having the time of their lives , while the lives of the Darlings is just mind-blowing. Granted there is the downside to being extremely and extravagantly wealthy, but who pays attention to those little nagging details. I mean attempted suicide in both shows does put a damper on the idea of the upper-class and wealthy in the big apple, but whose paying attention to that anyways. I mean my life would have so much more meaning if I could just spend spend spend, and party party party until my little heart gave out. This lifestyle of the Rich but not so Famous seems pretty damn amazing. Then again so do a lot of things. Well at least a girl can dream right. Living in NY first of all would probably be a nightmare, seeing as I hate cities. But the partying would be a dream come true. And the endless amounts of cash/balls/brunches would def keep my friends and I busy for a while. Who could get bored with that? At least for a little bit. Nothing in moderation though, right?